Was doing a song in animal jam and lost connection to the server before I saved 💀.
Well hey at least we fixed the wifi today. So I don't have to worry about "wasting" my mobile data with unsaved work.
Maaan I don't want to redo the song. But I do like it, and it's a gift for my sibling, so I'll get back to it eventually. Not today though, since I was finished working on it for tonight anyways.
Story #4 . . . | . . .
Had to make Aspen a woman to maintain gender balance, since the more I developed Ant, the more she became definitely not a woman.
The main four are all trans now :).
One reason I don't want my siblings on my website is that I'm actively speculating on them 😭. Literally back when I made that post, I was thinking about talking about how my sibling could be trans.
I should put like a "siblings stay away" banner on ny homepage or smth oml.
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Content Warning: discussion of potential misgendering & deadnaming
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(*thinks about my sibling that seems to refer to themself with neutrally gendered language and also gendered me correctly that one time while seeming to avoid gendering me now*)
(Well obviously I don't know if they're trans, but even if they are, it could be dangerous to uncomfortable for them for attention to be drawn to their gender by being exclusively referred to with neutral language, despite the fact that they never asked to be.
Definitely couldn't straight up ask them if they're trans, either, since that's the kind of disclosure they should make on their own terms, if they want to disclose anything.)
"She—" (Of course there are still small mercies you can make while still gendering someone as their currently presented gender. Perhaps they'd prefer to be called their name as opposed to 'she') "—[Name]—" (Okay well you don't know that, and if they did have a preference, you've said both so you would've called them their least favourite one. Also being misgendered and deadnamed (if it is that in this case) is worse than just being called one of those things. Real one-two punch.)
"—Threw me out of the room in the game :(."
Made some chicken soup tonight, and unlike the first time, this one was very good. First try, too! :)
My siblings could theoretically find my blog… unnerving! I showed the lyrics to my bloodwash fan song to them, so if they search it up they'd find this 💀.
My sister doing a party drop in aj and it not loading for almost everybody 😬
FRIENDSHIP TEST RELEASE DATE!!!!!! . . . | . . .
WOOOO Friendship Test by Mar64ds on tumblr is coming out on Jan 5th!!!!
WOOO I am SO excited! It's a robot game about aromanticism, aplatonicism & lovelessness! Definitely check it out!
I might blog a let's play of the game on here once it comes out (a la Zarla's screencap adventures) :). I'm exited to learn about FriendProgram and Exe the most! :D
If you can't play it, Mar will post a playthrough on Friendship Test's youtube channel, although some secrets will be left out, so that there's stuff for players to discover. The overall story will be shown, though!
I hope lots of people play this game and keep it in our minds. Let's have a fun time everybody!
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Content Warning: (fictional) child abuse
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I was watching Danny Gonzalez's Scales video again, and the MC of story 3 would for sure be one of those kids desperately trying to manifest magic powers for a bit after seeing them on tv.
She'd watch Scales: Mermaids are Real, and stare as intensely as she could at water bottles to try and manipulate the water, for a week at least. She'd desperately want to have magic powers so that a Magical Adventure could start and sweep her away from her abusive life.
She was prone to believing in magic in general when she was little. She wouldn't even believe most of the things she'd read at first (eg: if you bury a pinecone with a note describing an animal, you'll end up with a magical nature familiar of that animal!), but time and time again she'd think "But what if it really works this time? It would take me away from my awful life!", and she'd get all excited, and start believing it's real,hoping against hope that it'll really work.
Although I think it's important to know that she wasn't actively thinking the "I hope magic is real and I get whisked off into an adventure in order to escape my cyrrent life 'cus I'm being abused". If she really thought about it, she'd know she was unhappy with her current life, but being unhappy doesn't necessarily mean someone is wronging you. And she tried not to tjink too hard about it anyway, she just got a feeling of sadness and so tried to steer away from untangling that.
So she'd be like "I hope magic is real and I get whisked away on an adventure because. Magic is Fun and Awesome."
(Edit: Or maybe like. Okay so yeah she gets a genral feeling that she's sad, and then doesn't dwell on it 'cus it's SAD. But a general sense of sadness and disatisfaction with her life isn't a Real feeling she can have about the situation ('situation' being her life). Those aren't real feelings you can have. Which means obviously she's doing this because magic is Fun and Awesome. 'Cus there literally isn't any other explanation.)
Anyway. Of course, the magic stuff never did work. At first it would crush the mc. Then she learned to ignore how it failed, and quickly moved on from it until the next magical thing arrived. Then, eventually, she stopped believing that magic could be real, and stopped engaging in those types of activities.
Anyway, I think it's a bit funny 'cus the mc isn't even that into stories with magic (although she enjoys them too). She was just focused on that when she was younger 'cus that's what the majority of media she watched was like. But she actually much prefers thr "really advanced technology/science" route once she starts seeing it more.
Her favourite show that she eventually gets put into is actually one of those kinds of shows! Lots of power suits and robots and science experiment monsters.
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Content Warning: talking about not eating
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Made some chicken soup yesterday that was honestly pretty bad since I didn't add any seasoning. But I bought some seasoning today and fixed it up.
And damn! I think I'm gonna eat pretty normally tomorrow, what with this being in conjunction with renewed pasta making abilities since I vought chicken powder and milk.
Also, yeah, I for sure have less of an appetite then I'm used to. But if I up my food intake I'll be able to get my hunger to more normal levels again! I was able to get myself to eat thrice in the latter hours of the day, amounting to two bowls of chicken soup (which is less soup amd more wet rice, actually. It was mostly rice).
Hell, maybe I'm on track to actually eating a normal amount bow that I'm beginning to make actual Foods. Meals.
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Content Warning: disordered eating
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Okay it's 6:10pm amd I d9n't think I've eaten all day 😬.
Okay enough of this STARVING thing I'm gonna eat more regularly tomorrow.
Agh… I should go out and buy stuff I'm willing to eat. I habe some money. Maybe go to that place with the bananas, if we get as much as last time then I can gorge myself on those. It'd probably be unpleasant since those bananas were not the newest + noone wants to be eating the same thing all day (also I might be allergic given that bananas burn my mouth, but that doesn't really bother me), but eh, it's for my health.
I wamt to go buy stuff for chicken soup. It's been a while since all of us have had a filling meal (not counting that big thing of spaghetti our mum made. But also I'm not sure if it was eaten that much?).
Mami's made some chicken temders so I'll go eat those, but the problem is that my siblings might want s9me, and nevermind we're only allowed 1 eaxh. I guess I'll make pasta after.
Going insane over a (kinda bad sometimes I mean even the creator themself doesn't like it—) show. Me and my siblimgs habe written up a whole DOC. WHAT THE HELL.
My sibling even managed to track down the creator who vanished ans we got to ask them what the story was gonna be (there are SO many godsamn mysteruws and questions we have. like what the HELL was going on).
Unfortunately the creator straight up didn't remember anything, but we were able to get confirmation about something which was obvious but still uncomfirmed, AND they mentioned a plot point which none of us were expecting?? Fascinating stuff! Can only imagine how that new character would've factored in! (I wanna know about herrrr).
So now I'm doing subtitles for one of the videos, since it was supposed to be viewed with english subs, and it'll be easier to analyse the lyrics if it's synced.